i can't stop hearing it
we did a kundalini yoga set about a month ago with this mantra in it and, since then, it has been popping in and out of my consciousness, here and there, tugging me to the side for consideration, contemplation...
i woke up this morning with it calling out to me as i gained consciousness
i DO love you i DO love you
i remember when we first did it, deeply listening to my own voice repeating it as i experimented with emphasizing different words or groups of words in that sentence we were chanting
each combination created a different song and moved me in different ways
i DO love you i do LOVE you I do love you i do love YOU
I DO love you i DO LOVE you i do LOVE YOU
I DO LOVE you i DO LOVE YOU
I DO LOVE YOU
to me, the NAAD (sound current) of it felt kinda pretty and satisfying, but also i was aware of the sensations of periodic resistance and little 'shocks' along the way
so here i am, sitting with it out on the table, in full view. hello, dear reader of my blog
as i am a yogi, i understand that the i am not my mind - i am a trinity of body, mind and soul. my mind is my TOOL!
and the purpose of reciting mantras is for the oh, so/way-cool! and priceless benefit of clearing out the subconscious mind's reservoir
so, here comes the downloading of echos, shadows and ghosts from my past and the opportunity for some deep cleaning, all because of this one mantra's deep penetrating, foaming action (i got those words straight off the label of my ARM & HAMMER SCRUB-FREE Bathroom Cleaner)
are you laughing with me?
all humor aside, let me show you how my mind works and talks to me; it's no joke because it is REAL
...just old, stink-o, moldy patterns, so very automatic and holding this INSTANT POWER to take over my freedom to choose and claim my birthright to happiness, stopping the show, running me into the ground, eating me up and ever running their course - that SIMPLY BEING that they are STUCK in a cycle and LOCKED in a pattern in the bog
it sounds like this:
i DO love you - oh, yah sure - comes up the CYNIC
i do LOVE you - right...... - comes up MISS DOUBT
i do love YOU - say it REAL QUIET so no one hears you - the CO-DEPENDENT
I DO love you - do NOT get caught saying THAT - ah, the GUILTY ONE
i do LOVE you - NOT!!! - the BIG, little DEVIL jumps onto the stage
and on and on - YOU know these tapes as well as i
all the different personifications of a hundred different layers of defense mechanisms erected to protect our innocence, bucking up and showing their faces
and here we are, all such BIG FANs of the best soaps and detergents, scrubbies, air fresheners, deodorants and YEAH for GARBAGE DAY! - we are SO DEEPLY TRAINED and thrive on covering up our dirt and smells, our mess
i wanted to HUG each one of the city of Houston and FEMA garbage truck drivers on the days they finally showed up and took away our next layer of IKE-disaster, molten piles of refuse and broken trees
well, all i got to say is, THANK GOD FOR MEDITATION - like, take this garbage OUT of me!
this is NOT who i am and the truth is i DO LOVE YOU
i am ready NOW! - do your magic, work on me when i am awake and in my sleep, reprint my subconscious mind and give me access to my unlimited soul
and thus, i am having yet another EXPERIENCE of how the power of the YOGIC TOOL of meditation can train my mind and release me from attachment to a non-reality perceived in the matrix of life on planet earth
wahe guru! (means: the dance of ecstasy, the sanctuary and the HUGE blessing of being conscious)
enjoy this day-oh
humbly
guruatma
"This is the key to training your mind. Use the mind to project to and stay at a point beyond the mind's own nature. When your mind stays with the self-illuminated soul within you, then all the pains and suffering disappear and your presence radiates and works. If you train your mind by confronting your ego and desires, it only causes pain. Train the mind by directing it to confront your unlimited soul. The mind will be elevated and you will be elevated. That consistent projection and training is called permanent state of bliss." Yogi Bhajan